hello?......hello.....yes I am here. Back again :)

It has been awhile since I have blogged. I can only say that life had taken over and therefore I did not blog.

So much has happened. I still work as a pre-k teacher for 3-5 year olds with and without special needs. It is summer now and so that is all I'll say about work for now.

What is new? Nathan and I will have been married for four years in July. We are expecting our first baby in September and we have adopted a Beagle from the shelter this past November named Duke.

I'd like to touch on pregnancy in this blog.

I found out at 4 weeks I was pregnant. That was back in January. I took a home test on a whim and I was pleasantly surprised!

I continued on my path of eating salads for lunch and although in the first weeks my workouts were stunted a bit with the intensitiy level, they came back quickly.  I really want to write my own book about working out and being pregnant as most books I attempted to use for guidance really were not of any help with my level of fitness and my body's abilities during pregnancy. I may test some of my writing out here so look for that if you are interested.

The worst symptoms of  my pregnancy: fatigue and feeling super un-attractive because my boobs and stomach just sprung outward all of a sudden.

The best symptom of my pregnancy: the happy hormones! :) The baby moving all around in response to voices and familiar music played nearby the womb.

Life is unfair

In my family there is a tradition that I hate! Kidney stones. Yep. I am 27 and I have them. My first passing of these rocks of hell happened June of 2010. Prior to that I had several uti's. May I just say these are awful! Anyone that knows me well knows I drink water like it's going out of style. I have four bottles of supplements geared towards prevention of stones and uti's. I take these daily. I also take cranberry pills every other day. But still I get them. I have been advised to not eat chocolate, sugary foods, flours, processed foods, or pastas. So, I am a woman that loves chocolate. This makes life terribly unfair. So what can I eat? Fresh fruits and veggies and lean meats. I am fine with this except the chocolate part. :(
You know what else you must limit? Sex. Yep that's right this tradition takes all the fun out of a woman. No chocolate and no sex! Life is so unfair. Also, no drinking. Yep, as if sex and chocolate weren't enough..now you can't even drink. Haha! So, drink 'em if you got 'em! Eat up your chocolate and your lover! I'll just be biting on a bell pepper and swigging water all while being abstinent. Life is so unfair!

2 years and still going

Today marks my 2 year anniversary to my husband Nathan. I feel safe with him and that's only part of it. I look at pictures from our special day and I can't help but notice we have changed. Already in two years. We have grown into our promises to one another. We depend on each other and our plans for our continued life are just unfolding. Steady jobs and mature routines have really helped, but so has starting over in a city that we only know a handful of people.
Have you ever taken a college course or maybe even been to a seminar or bible study, where you are asked to put down in an order your priorities? Many people put down family, religion, jobs, exercise (okay maybe that's just me), friends, animals, material items. You get the idea. My question to myself was how do I rank these priorities in my life? How do you? And I compare my list to Nate's.

Ponder that.

Lost

My mind.

Spring break 1

Today was officially my first day of spring break. So how did I spend it you ask? Well I went by myself (yes by myself) to star bucks and got a banana nut bread slice and a tall mocha frappuccino and sat there by myself, yes again by myself, and drank and ate while reading the latest issue of cosmo on my new iPad! What a blast. Yes I was having fun alone. Then because yesterday I had ran outside with my new running and gym friend Sonya busby and got a slight sunburn on my shoulders I went to target to get aloe as it is nearby. I shopped for a bit and then came home to enjoy the beautiful breeze and sunshine blowing through my patio door. I love spring!
To me spring resembles new life but also fresh beginnings. I think I will keep those thoughts as I continue my journey. I guess for me the new beginning was me accepting my life in Wichita and continuing to find that it is good after all. Another journey I hope to continue is my drive to run outdoors for longer distances. I have to admit when I hear the word race I get anxious because those who have ran along with me or around me know I have short legs and I do good just to make 10 minute miles. So, my hope is to rid my fear of running in races and being last. I also know I will probably have to do that alone too and that too is scary at times. It is at those very thoughts my heart aches for my long lost gym friend krista from Lawrence as she always pulled me back to reality and calmed those fears away. Hmm maybe I can con Sonya into one race this spring or summer? Any who....my spring break is off to a good start!

a new year with a new job

I am super exhausted as I just began my new job this week and continued to maintain my gym schedule. I have a lot of behavior kiddos and they exhaust me because they require such constant physical contact . I have had several other professionals come into my room and say, "I feel so sorry for you because I don't know how you are doing this with all these behavior kids." I don't even know what to say to that. I don't know how I will do it either, but I can't give up on these kids like their parents' probably already have. On another note it is Saturday at 12pm and I still haven't gotten out of my PJ's. I have done laundry, dishes and some small cleaning chores. But mainly I am spending my Saturday on my bed watching t.v.  :) Nate is working at the office...so I won't see him too much today but I am okay with that as last night he took me to the Warren Theatre for a movie and drinks! He also has been a great support for me during this awful first week of work. Here's hoping next week will be better. So, as a closing note. Happy new year and here is hoping 2011 can be better than 2010!!

jobs!

So many countless nights since I have been unemployed (since August) have occurred. I would stay up late starring at the clock turn over to every minute and listen to the sirens that blare by (since we live by a fire station). I would dread each day as I would not rise until 10am most days and then I would have to convince myself to shower for the day.I made to do lists for around the house. I made many meals for supper. I made desserts just for the hell of it (not a wise idea since desserts are my weakness). But today that all changed! I was offered a job at the special education cooperative for the Maize/Goddard school district. Also, may be teaching an online infant/toddler development class for Allen Community College if there is enough students enrolled! YAY! I am so nervous as I only have infant/toddler experience out of school, but they know that. I just hope I can do what I was put on this earth to do. And that is to teach little people of all abilities to grow and learn in a supportive educational environment. For those who remain unemployed and highly qualified for jobs...keep looking it's hard, it's depressing, it's stressful, it's horrible, it's frustrating, but there HAS to be an end to all of that at some point and I am so grateful and thankful that it is over for me. Thank you, thank you God! :)